It's a few days into my new regimen, and I'm doing well at sticking to the plan.  I must say it has left me feeling a little lightheaded and weak, but I expect that to pass in a few days.  I wish I had more time to lose before the Reunion, but all I can do is my best today and tomorrow, going forward and not back.  I got an amazing call from Vassar today...speaking of the Reunion.  They offered to pay for half of my weekend as a "scholarship", and I was blown away!  What a huge help that will be.  I'm really looking forward to it, despite the way I look.  Hopefully, people will be looking for the real me underneath, and not judge me too harshly for the external packaging. 

I'm now sending my daily Food Diary to Joe and Mark, and so far it's been helpful.  It keeps me focused and accountable, and it also helps to look at what I ate throughout the day.  I'm surprised that Joe would be interested in or willing to look at my Diary every day - he's got so much else going on.  I'm actually touched that he cares so much.  We had an excellent session last yesterday, and I felt we achieved a real meeting of the minds.  He understands me a lot better for the misunderstanding we had, and talking it through led to some very productive discussion.  I do know that he always has my best interest at heart, and does his utmost to help me.  Revealing that I was afraid of him was initially hard to do, to be vulnerable in that way, but it led to a talk about my divorce from David and the way I chose to handle the whole prenup situation.  If I could only go back and do things differently.